When love became an act of defiance

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I hear your heart beating in your chest
The world slows 'till there's nothing left
Skyscrapers look on like great, unblinking giants

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The man is quiet as he observes the way that Jonathan interacts with his birds. It's curious to him.

He's quiet for a little longer when Jonathan asks that question and he seems to consider how he wants to answer it. There was a lot that he could say about it and none of them good. There was nothing about it that he enjoyed. Having to constantly parse through thoughts that weren't his own. Memories even. The feeling that his mind wasn't his own.

Even if he ignored that; they've only ever brought him misery. He doesn't think there has ever been anything positive about them. "I wished I never had it, really." It answers the question, but it probably just raises more questions if anything.

"It's better if we don't get along," Abel simply replies with. He doesn't intend to apologize for it because it wouldn't really be genuine. His intentions were to rile the other up. To make them dislike him. He holds Kiwi out to the other. "It really is better that way."

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Jonathan's gaze drops at Abel's answer, "Oh..." It answered one of his lingering questions that he had yet to ask. It also spoke a lot of Abel's feelings on the matter and he can only imagine what being around anyone must be like especially at socials.

This was their first real day together and he feels like any new information he learns about the other is completely turned on its head when Abel speaks or acts. He was an enigma that he couldn't solve or getting any sort of footing with.

It was rather frustrating the confusion he felt.

But then all he feels next is this twinge of guilt and sadness at Abel's words.

"I think what you need is a friend, Abel." He starts off with, turning his hand over slowly to get Beau to walk onto his palm so there was somewhere for Kiwi to walk onto, "It doesn't have to be me, if you don't want it to be but, at least, choose them."

Kiwi looks up at Abel before turning to spot Beau and patters her way over to Jonathan's hand.

"My offer still stands. That you can visit and spend time with them whenever you want to. Maybe they'll help like they did during this visit." He says as he looks up at the other, his features a bit sad.

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He watches as Kiwi waddles over to join Beau on their owner's hand. He idly thinks the hilarious irony that these birds have more freedom than he does.

Abel merely gets to his feet and heads back over to the door that adjoins their room. He pauses for a moment when he turns the doorknob and pushes the door open a tad. The Brit turns for a moment to look at the other.

"Friends are a luxury, Jonathan. You don't easily find it in a world of shallow socialites," he says. His gaze lingers for a moment longer before he turns away. "It's a luxury that I cannot afford." Eventually Jonathan will leave, but Abel will continue to be trapped in this life.

"Good night, Jonathan." He walks through the door and shuts it behind him; letting the other mule over his thoughts.

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Jonathan shifts in his spot as Abel moves to leave, having his body turned to face the other while he offers the birds one of the treats to occupy themselves for the moment.

He opens his mouth as if to reply to that but instead he's quiet. He's seen the world Abel is forced to interact in and the other might be right on that note. He honestly wouldn't be sure who to trust in a circle like that since he's sure most make friendships to only get ahead and won't hesitate to drop you at the slightest inconvenience.

"Good night, Abel." His voice is soft as he watches the other leave into their room.

Jonathan stares at the door, sadly, for a few long moments before he drags his attention to his birds. He flops back against the bed, an arm tucked behind his head as he places Beau and Kiwi on his chest, lightly scratching Beau's neck.

"Guess we'll be staying for the long haul then, ladies." He mutters to himself. Friends may be hard to make for the other but if he stays, maybe that would chance things. Only time would really tell though.